Tell her I can't. She told the Irish Times that she thought Prince's fixation on religion was a product of the couple's devastating loss. 'I sat on the sofa, smiling a pretty ballerina smile,' writes Garcia. Every day something went wrong,' writes Garcia. 'He was curled on his side, gasping shallow little gulps of air. 'Days passed into darkness,' writes Garcia. We never had any pet names, and I dont think in the whole time we were together I called him anything, which I guess is a bit weird, she confesses. Soon after they met when she was just 16, Prince constantly tried to get Garcia to change her name from Mayte to Arabia, and even addressed her as Arabia in letters. Prince attempted to control, bully and manipulate his first wife Maye Garcia during their ten-year relationship and then abandoned and humiliated her after an unspeakable family tragedy, she claims in her upcoming tell-all, The Most Beautiful: My Life With Prince. She still has pictures of him, some of . The devastated Garcia contemplated suicide, and became even more depressed when she suffered a miscarriage following Amiirs death. The day before his death a specialist in addiction medicine was contacted by members of Prince's team, with the man agreeing to treat the singer and immediately sending his son to Paisley Park to get started on an treatment plan for opiod addiction. She became pregnant almost at once, but their son Boy Gregory died just a week after birth due to Pfeiffer syndrome, a rare defect of the skull. ', Garcia then writes: 'I caught hold of his tiny hand, saying over and over, "Mama loves you, Mamas here."'. Bizarrely, within days of losing their son the couple went on the Oprah Winfrey show and pretended he was still alive. In October of that. Get a daily dose of showbiz gossip direct to your inbox. They had one child. After her divorce from Prince, Testolini began a close friendship with Garcia, and they are still . #Prince #MayteGarcia #PaisleyPark #TheMostBeautiful #Liar #Fraud #Greedy. After she graduated high school in Germany, she became a member of the New Power Generation. Ever. Mayte Garcia and the legendary musician Prince were married for three years and had one child. 'I dont think he ever got over it,' writes Garcia. ', She goes on to say: 'They stood in the middle of this colorful paradise of toys. "', Red hot: Garcia on stage with Prince in 1995, two months before their wedding (left) and performing at his tribute concert last October in Minnesota (right). When youre creating, traveling and having the best time of your life the last thing on your mind is sleep. 'I had been instructed by my husband, "Say nothing about Amiir. The couple first came into contact in 1990, when Garciasmom submitted a video cassette of her daughters dancing to Prince. She screens applicants closely to make sure theyre ready for the special needs of these special pets. marriage, prince s ex wife mayte garcia it was the most bizarre relationship ever but i will always love him he wrote the most beautiful girl in the world song for her he wore stiletto heels at all times, t he princess was born at 8 34am weighing 8lbs 3oz just 3oz less than prince george when he arrived in july 2013 she is the first princess to . Each heart-shaped pink sheet measures 7.5'' x 6.5'' with notes handwritten by Prince, intentionally blurred here. We all know what he was truly committed to and that's a hard mistress to follow.I honestly wanted to see if this was a setup to have orgers pouncing continuously on Prince's wives for one stupid reason or another. One doctor eventually recommended a tracheotomy for the boy to help him breathe. He made me feel banished and not just banished by my husband, but banished by God. Today,' Prince told his wife. Prince and Mayte Garcia were married for 2 years. Sorry, Charlie, she says she repeatedly told him. Ever. Every day was a struggle even to breathe.. Since Prince's death in April 2016, she has helped build two schools in his name in Malawi through her charity organization, In a Perfect World. Our house was full of them, but I just couldnt say the word. Murdaugh is heckled as he leaves court, Ken Bruce finishes his 30-year tenure as host of BBC Radio 2, Moment teenager crashes into back of lorry after 100mph police race, Alex Murdaugh unanimously found GUILTY of murder of wife and son, Isabel Oakeshott clashes with Nick Robinson over Hancock texts, Family of a 10-month-old baby filmed vaping open up, Ukrainian soldier takes out five tanks with Javelin missiles. The four-year love affair between Prince and Mayte Garcia culminated in an extravagant marriage ceremony, an outlandish lifestyle and tragically, the loss of two children. The Most Beautiful - Mayte Garcia 2017-04-04 INSTANT NEW YORK TIMES BESTSELLER At the one-year anniversary of his death, legendary musician Prince's rst wife shares a uniquely intimate, candid, and revelatory look inside the personal and professional life of one of the world's most beloved icons. He wanted to surprise me. She'd come to find out if the child was dead or deformed like people were saying,' writes Garcia. The singer 'never denied that the occasional impure thought crossed his mind' writes Garcia, but the too 'did not have a sexual relationship' at that time. She focuses specifically on pets that have been abused or neglected, to help them find a happier life. We were our own creators, and he didnt have anyone to report to. One off day I arrived wearing sweatpants, and Prince made me go home and change, she writes. ', She then added: 'I loved him then, I love him now and will love him eternally. But I didnt really want to speak to anybody. Garcia got pregnant again during her marriage to Prince, but she miscarried. We didnt have cellphones then, and we never wore watches, so time was just never something we would think about. Hollywood Life Prince's ex-wife said Thursday she was "devastated" by the musician's shocking death. "He's with our son now.". When She Met Him, Everything 'The Crown' Got Right (and Wrong) About Princess Diana, Olivia Wilde and Tao Ruspoli, Son of the Prince of Cerveteri, Eloped on a School Bus, Lady Gaga Said She'd Wear a David's Bridal Gown if She Wed Taylor Kinney, Will Smith Once Compared His and Sheree Zampino's Marriage to "Chinese Water Torture", Jennifer Lopez Doesn't "Really Count" Her Marriage to Cris Judd, Jack Nicholson's Post-Breakup Gift Left Anjelica Huston Both "Charmed and Furious", wed on Valentine's Day in Minneapolis in 1996, Prince told Garcia not to mention their son. She writes about the impact losing Amiir had on Prince too, saying it was one of the most difficult moments in her ex-husband's life. 'Twenty minutes later, the tour accountant came in and said "I'm so sorry I have to dock your pay this week."'. She reveals that Prince then looked at the obstetrician and said: 'And? I think that is why there is always this push to prove how important the wives were. And then Mayte revealed how Prince rocked his high heels 24/7even in the comfort of his own crib, but she also said that lack of confidence about his height was never an issue for him, When I was with him he always wore these little stiletto heels I dont know what size he was but I could put my feet into his shoes. Some people have to criticize everything all the time. Prince and Mayte Garcia had their marriage annulled in 1999 on their third wedding anniversary. ', Garcia goes on to write: 'I learned all this later. The singer was stern about her style writes Garcia, making her change when she showed up to rehearsal in sweatpants one day. Would love your thoughts, please comment. In 2017, Garcia revealed that the combination to the late singer's music vault was her measurements. Ive kind-of been spoiled and I guess I am kind-of screwed-up now.. Subscribe now for more! Please network and email me for inquiries they are as sweet as can be. - RIP Prince. Love affair:Prince's ex-wife Mayte Garcia (above with the singer in 1994) shares details about the pair's decade-long relationship in her new memoir. 'Pfeiffer syndrome type 2 is a genetic disorder that causes skeletal and systematic abnormalities' writes Garcia. We were our own creators, and he didnt have anyone to report to. On Valentine's Day in 1996, Garcia, then 22, married Prince, then 37, in Minneapolis. Copyright 2023 Radar Media Group LLC. Every day was a struggle even to breathe.. "When I met him, I didn't call him Prince," she explained. Powered by. The baby was born a month premature, but Garcia said she had a relatively smooth pregnancy at the beginning until she began to bleed one day, at which point an amniocentesis was recommended by her doctor to test for genetic abnormalities in the baby. That same year she was also invited to visit Paisley park, where she belly danced for Prince and then slept in a separate bedroom. If I were her, I would have hocked it a long time ago. That same year she also inspires Prince's latest album, whose title was an unpronounceable symbol that later became known as Love Symbol. Prince & Mayte Garcia: Her Beautiful Wedding Dress - YouTube If anyone is an expert on tacky it is "Mayte" Garcia. Garcia writes that she began sobbing, telling Prince: 'Tell her I'm sick. A post shared by Mayte Garcia (@maytejannell) on Jan 21, 2016 at 9:03pm PST. 'I never told him about my thoughts of suicide or how close I had come to doing it,' writes Garcia. mode: 'thumbnails-rr1', Neither did they ever go out on a date. Saved from a crack house in Compton later to be "taken" by a rescue to be neglected. Sinead Lynch/Getty Images. So although I am not actively in love with him, I will always love him hes a great guy., Celeb obsessed? Neither did they ever go out on a date. Garcia was enraged when Prince released his very dirty music video for 1999 single The Greatest Romance Ever Sold. The clip featured my husband getting down and dirty and I mean very down and very dirty with a girl I later discovered was a stripper from Le Crazy Horse, she reveals. But I never felt his insecurity in height. We dont mourn artists because we knew them. He was a multi-millionaire pop superstar, a global icon and, at 32, twice her age. He wrote the Most Beautiful Girl in the World song for her, he wore stiletto heels at all times and she never addressed him as anything at all. Hes also really, really, really funny, which most people dont realise. "My soul has been in love with [my wife] Mayte for thousands of years," Prince told Spike Lee in 1997. In 1996, they were married on Valentines Day. She was 19 at the time. April 21, 201602:11. A few years later, Garcia learned to forgive her ex, and the former couple was on good terms before his 2016 overdose death. Prince fits that definition perfectly and we cant be mad at him for that at all, do your thing Prince! As a wedding gift, Prince gave his bride a 7,500 square-foot mansion in Spain, complete with a professional hair salon and music studio. When he got to where I was sitting he took my hand and pulled me up into his arms and hugged me,' writes Garcia. The muse behind his 1995 hit "The Most Beautiful Girl in the World". Just 16 when they met, Mayte went on six years later, on Valentine's Day in 1996, to marry Prince, who died last April from an accidental overdose of the painkiller fentanyl. Advertisement Mayte initially met Prince in Germany in 1990 after her mother submitted a tape of her belly dancing to the legendary singer's song to show him her talents. 'This man wearing eyeliner, heels and ladies' perfume somehow manged to be more masculine than the burly bodyguard. He was only 57 at the time. Ive dated a couple of guys, musicians, who have written me poems or songs and Im like, Seriously, dont even go there. When Garcia was 16, she and her family were visiting Spain and decided to see Prince in concert. I doubt any woman ever has hes not really a cinema kinda guy, she says. It seems so modest. One of the two.". 'There's no man who could literally take my pantsuit, eyeliner and mascara and rock it better than me.'. The two had been in a sexual relationship for years at that point, one that Prince initiated by informing Garcia one day that it was time for her to go on birth control. She joined his Diamonds and Pearls tour,. Soon after that, she became pregnant again and had a miscarriage and both of those incredibly painful losses are what began to tear their marriage apart. His son arrived the following morning, and was one of the three people in the house who discovered the singer's lifeless body. She said in a later interview that they had lost a second child also, but they didnt share this with the media at the time. After a 1 month engagement they married on 14th Feb 1996. As always you can unsubscribe at any time. As a wedding gift, Prince gave his bride a 7,500 square-foot mansion in Spain, complete with a professional hair salon and music studio. Chappelle was playing Prince and henamed Princes team was BlousesLOL. "Nell's son,'' he told the publication. Im totally fine with that.'. Early life [ edit] Garcia was born on November 12, 1973, at Fort Rucker, Alabama, army base. Mayte, 5ft 5ins in her stockinged size five feet, says: When I was with him he always wore these little stiletto heels I dont know what size he was but I could put my feet into his shoes. Prince made Garcia a front-and-center focus of his career for quite some time. Overview. This is why so many people fall for him. Prince refused to allow Garcia to get the procedure she reveals, even after the doctor told the expectant parents: 'Sometimes the body is trying to release the fetus for a reason.'. They remained friends for the next two years at a distance, exchanging letters and videos ( "Maybe we could fly away 2 Jupiter, I hear the food is good there"), and then Prince invited her to join his team. I was 19. There were times I was hungry enough to sneak food from room service carts in the hotel hallway, she recalls. Actress Mayte Garcia first met Prince when she auditioned for his tour in the early 1990s. He died just a week later because he was born with Pfeiffer syndrome, a defect in the skull.
[email protected], A post shared by Mayte Garcia (@maytejannell) on Nov 22, 2015 at 7:12pm PST. Mayte on never addressing Prince by any name: We never had any pet names, and I dont think in the whole time we were together I called him anything, which I guess is a bit weird, she confesses. Mayte explains: To lose two babies is really scary it really caught on me emotionally, physically, everything. Mayte Garcia was just 16 and living in Germany when her mother submitted a video of the the teenager belly dancing to Prince, which allowed her to spend some time backstage at one of his shows. Subscribe now for the exclusive excerpt - only in PEOPLE.. These 2 right here. Prince's ex-wife is sharing new details about the pair's relationship in her new memoir, including how the two first met with and the night that the singer took her virginity. Stunner: Garcia (above in 1992) was just 16 when she met Prince. And I lost hope. You cant compete!, But I think Im now screwed for life because my first relationship was the most bizarre relationship ever and Im not normal any more. Just two months later, she was pregnant. Then, after the nurses were able to get the baby breathing, Garcia was finally able to hold her boy for the first time. I doubt any woman ever has hes not really a cinema kinda guy, she says. TMZ is reporting that Prince passed away Thursday at the age of 57. They started dating when she was 18 and he was 34four years later they were at the alter joining in bizarre, yet loving holy matrimony. For the first time she talks about life with Prince inside Paisley Park - and how the death of their baby drove them apart. Hes also really, really, really funny, which most people dont realize. Mayte Garcia And Prince | Mayte Garcia And Prince Wedding Pictures | Mayte Garcia Baby. Garcia admits that she still thinks about her baby boy, and how writing the memoir brought back many of the heartbreaking memories from this time. There is no animosity or bad blood, and he was my husband and the father of my child. target_type: 'mix' I thought it was modest too, but those huge rocks look so gaudy. Isn't a wedding ring supposed to be the value of 2 month's salary . In 1998, Prince announced the couple's divorce, eventually filing an annulment June 2000. 'Prince was outside his dressing room, shaking one of those little Easter egg maracas,' writes Garcia of their first encounter. I was physically distraught. I'm not sure how this relates to posting about whether or not she did or wanted to sell her engagement ring. He's with our son now.'. The Getty Images design is a trademark of Getty Images. She eventually wrote to him in 2006 and said she was ready to forgive him, meeting her ex-husband in Las Vegas for one of his shows. AdaK 's O(+> 251 followers . She was eighteen. Garcia recalls how the nurses began to frantically work on Amiir, while her husband asked the staff in the operating room: 'Why is he not crying?'. (REX/Shutterstock), Mayte Garcia attends the NBC Universal Press Tour All Star Party in August 2009. Prince $156.4 Million Estate Battle Comes To An End Family Set To Split Only $6 Million, Inside The Rise & Fall Of Prince & The Revolution's Greatest Album 'Purple Rain', Prince's Estate Valued At $156.4 Million As Final Amount Following Six Years Of Legal Proceedings. Right off the bat, things were extravagant. Mayte Garcia looks back on her relationship with Prince in a new book titled The Most Beautiful. revered artists, from Marvin Gaye and Prince to Nash, Teena Marie, and Berry Gordy. The next day - or maybe it was a week later or in another lifetime - my husband came to me and said "I can't be here. She designed her wedding dress herself, with the help of Prince's wardrobe designer. For one thing, in 1993 he had changed his name to that unpronounceable symbol following a row with his record label. When Prince thought she did eat too much, he punished her for it, she claims. She said she wasnt still in love with him, but would always love him. For me, it was very, very hard to move forward and for us as a couple I think it probably broke us.. "I know that he would go through little phases of certain things. Plus, technically, I was married to the Symbol. The couple's Oprah interview took place just weeks after Amiir had passed away, and Prince told Garcia not to mention their son. 'They'd sewn his eyes shut. It took me at least 15 years to get over it and still, to this day, I miss my son. placement: 'Right Rail Thumbnails', In The Most Beautiful, a title inspired by the hit song Prince wrote about their legendary love story, Mayte Garcia . Pleaselook it up!!! They had been engaged since last summer and reportedly planned to marry this July 4, either in Malibu (where Lee lives) or. Intubation. The fusion of bones in the hands and feet causing a webbed or pawlike appearance. (REX/Shutterstock), Tommy Lee and Mayte arriving to the 2002 VH1/Vogue Fashion Awards at Radio City Music Hall on October 15, 2002. 'Oprah's coming to Paisley. The diamond engagement ring with which Prince proposed to his wife Mayte Garcia, accompanied by 5 handwritten heart notes, which Prince used to lead her on a romantic journey to the ring. Now they are with @maytesrescue and we need donations to put them in a beautiful boarding facility until they find a home TOGETHER! I think he would just hug me.'. On Valentine's Day in 1996, Garcia, thn 22, married Prince, thn 37, in Minneapolis. I have to wonder why he took her in there. He gave her a meager salary of just $300 a week. 1 child. There is no animosity or bad blood, and he was my husband and the father of my child. Prince is 52 and Mayte is 54, so maybe he was compensating for that, who knows? Mayte Garcia was just 16 when she met the 32-year-old music genius. Masja Bijmans. Prince was my first crush, and my first love, but we didnt start to get serious until I turned 18. Prince and Mayte met when she was 16 years old, after her mother, Nelle, submitted a VHS tape of Maytes dancing to Prince and his team. Mayte Garcia says Prince was a musical genius with a big heart. The couple attempted to keep the tragedy out of the press, but the media kept digging. The loss of their children led to the end of their marriage. We've got many kids to have." "My belief is when something happens so tragic in your life, you can become very vulnerable and you can be open to many things, and I'm not saying religion is bad in the book I tried to be as loving as possible but it is what it is.". Prince never, ever mentioned it except to say he wished he was taller so he could play basketball. When we got married it was much easier. But I never felt his insecurity in height. La pareja se cas el 14 de febrero de 1996, en una ceremonia ntima en una capilla de la ciudad natal del vocalista. We mourn them because they helped us know ourselves. "I just say 'hey. Instead of, you know, comparing prices and trying things on, the couple would hit Melrose (in a limo, of course) and storm in and out of each store before anyone could notice that American royalty was within eyeshot. I have to go."'. It felt hot and toxic and lasted for a long, long time.. Two weeks later, the musician played a venue near where she lived (in Germany) and Garcia's mom slipped a tape of her daughter's routines to one of his backup dancers. Two years ago she adopted her daughter, Gia, now three-and-a-half. At the end of the journey was this stunning round diamond of approximately . Feb 04, 2020 02:30 A.M. A lot of things have happened to Prince's first wife, world-renowned dancer Mayte Garcia, after their divorce in 2000. ', 'She really makes my soul feel complete," he continued. Mom who lost both sons to fentanyl blasts laughing Biden, Missing hiker buried under snow forces arm out to wave to helicopter, Pavement where disabled woman gestured at cyclist before fatal crash, Isabel Oakeshott receives 'menacing' message from Matt Hancock, Pro-Ukrainian drone lands on Russian spy planes exposing location, 'Buster is next!' We humbly honor the old school soul music era and will keep pushing forward to keep it alive. The rescue is called Maytes Rescue and it focuses on finding loving homes for shelter dogs and cats. But in that first moment I couldn't understand what I was seeing.'. 'I don't know how long I lay in bed with Amiir's ashes. 'In retrospect, I don't know what to think.'. It's a beautiful ring. According to the outlet she has a daughter, Gia, who was five at the time of the interview, and teaches belly dancing classes. The two immediately hit it off, and ayear later Garcia was living with Prince at his Paisley Park compound in Minnesota, where he became her legal guardian with the approval of her parents. The comments below have not been moderated. After she joined his world tour at just age 17, Prince became her legal guardian. Garcia was 22 and Prince was 37. When Prince and Garcia welcomed their son, Amiir, in Oct. 1996, he was born with a genetic disorder called Pfeiffer Syndrome Type II, which can result in the fusion of bones, protrusion of eyes, and breathing problems. Prince made Garcia a front-and-center focus. The Engagement Ring Mayte Sold. So in four years of marriage Mayte never actually addressed her husband as anything at all. When not acting, Mayte (pronounced My-Tay, not Matey as I inadvertently call her) rescues animals. Prince had relationships with loads of women and from the outside looking in it looks as if they were different; some were professional, some were sexual, some romantic, some spiritual - they are all valid. 'They brought the baby over to us,' remembers Garcia. How remorseless Stephen Bear continued his arrogant antics up until Do not sell or share my personal information. They stayed in touch and two years later she joined his band and became an integral part of his life. She noted that the musician thought their souls may have crossed paths in Egypt. When you miscarry your body is freaking out, like Why cant I feed the baby? so those were the things I went through. They married on Valentines Day, 1996, in Princes home town of Minneapolis. ILoveOldSchoolMusic, old school news with a new point of view. I still think it is pretty, though. Garcia's memoir will hit bookshelves next month, one year after her husband was found dead in his Paisley Park compound. So exhausting. They ended by raising a purple guitar . Garcia spends much of her time today running a rescue for animals. Who: Dancer Mayte Garcia, 47, and Grammy-winning musician and icon Prince, who passed away at the age of 57 in 2016. Sol and Luna. 'The premature fusing of the bones in the skull, sometimes resulting in "cloverleaf skull," in which the eyes are outside the sockets. After they married in 1996, Mayte got pregnant almost instantly. It took Mayte a long time to let go of Prince. He was actually a really great basketball player.. (REX/Shutterstock), Click to Subscribe to Get Our Free HollywoodLife Daily Newsletter, Tom Sizemore Dead: Acclaimed Actor Dies At 61 After Brain Aneurysm, Al Roker Speaks Out On Hoda Kotb Amid Her 2-Week Absence From Today Show, Jessica Simpson Rocks Black Lace Bra As She Asks Fans To Be Humble. Never mind what you hear.'. When she delivered the sad news to Prince, he allegedly said I need to get back to the studio and walked toward the door.. He was actually a really great basketball player., Okay let me pause for second and point out that I cant help but think about the infamous Chapelle Show episode when Charlie Murphy told the story about the time they played Prince and his crew in a game of basketball. Ever since their marriage, she couldnt find lasting love. Prince eventually returned after leaving his young wife alone in bed with her son's ashes, then announced that the two would be doing an interview. Our Location Podomoro City, Garden Shophing Arcade Blok 8 DH; Office Phone (021) 22320748 Dwarfism was not the outcome the couple got however, and Garcia details in her memoir how she came to realize something was seriously wrong with her baby seconds after her C-section. He also kept a close watch over her weight, punishing her when after she gained a few pounds he saw her eating whipped cream. The singer was a firm believer in the power of prayer and religion, having maintained throughout his life that an angel cured him of epilepsy when he was a child. Prince attempted to control, bully and manipulate his first wife Maye Garcia during their ten-year relationship and then abandoned and "humiliated" her after an unspeakable family tragedy, she. And I drew a winkey smiley face,' writes Garcia. He shook his head, staring straight ahead, she recalls. At the time of that speech, Garcia had just experienced the second greatest loss of her life with the passing of Prince. Garcia Full Name Mayte Jannell Garcia Other Names Mayte Garcia-Nelson Age 49 Date of Birth 12 November 1973 Birthplace Fort Rucker, Alabama, USA Build Slim Height 5' 6" (168 cm) Eye Color Brown - Dark Hair Color Black Star Sign Scorpio Religion Roman Catholic Ethnicity Multiracial Nationality American High School Though the talk show host balked at the idea, suggesting that it was "kind of weird," Prince stood his ground. And when asked what she thought Prince would have to say about her memoir were he still alive, she said: ' I don't think he would say anything. After she graduated high school in Germany, she became a member of the New Power Generation. Inside Matt Hancock's 41-hour battle to save his career when photo of 'a snog and heavy petting' with aide Will Vladimir Putin's empress pay the ultimate price for his war on the West? BREAKING. She writes that after learning about the dwarfism she was also happy for the first time in a while, and even began to laugh when she and Prince got the news that would have been devastating for many other couples. iloveoldschoolmusic.com. I'm glad she decided to keep it. 'For a moment he was the man that I loved.'. Boy Gregory was born on October 16, 1996. They dated for 3 years after getting together in 1993. Prince, who had recently discovered Jehovahs Witnesses, also refused to allow her to undergo surgery following her miscarriage, insisting God would take care of her. Plus, technically, I was married to the Symbol. Ms. Garcia went on to become a creative collaborator of Prince's, then a backup dancer and employee, and finally his wife. Often we would play an arena then there would be an aftershow, and afterwards youre not tired because youve got so much adrenaline going. Sneak peek: Garcia' memoir is excerpted in the new People, on newsstands Friday, Garcia previously spoke about how difficult it was to process her husband's passing shortly after his death, telling People: 'I can't even think of the words of what I'm feeling. We also may change the frequency you receive our emails from us in order to keep you up to date and give you the best relevant information possible. You didnt see it because he was who he was.